Step away the frog

Letting go has been one of the hardest concepts to accept. When you have someone that you want to hold on to, you want to keep them with you and hope that maybe, just maybe, you could be with them forever. So, in essence, the hardest thing to do is knowing if you should let them go. If that is a yes, then how to know if it’s the right thing to do. For me, it has been easier to let someone go when you know there is no potential for the relationship to go further. There is a gut feeling that either is silently whispering or is screaming at you (maybe even somewhere in between).

I recently had to go through this within the last few months. I liked a guy for 5 months before I realized that there was no potential in pursuing anything besides a friendship. We met when we were studying abroad in the Yosemite area. He was great! He was sensitive, bold, he even had dreads (not a standard, but a plus). He hit every standard I wanted and he even exceeded some of them. Oh and did I mention his piercing blue eyes. I didn’t. Oh silly me… mmm… *smack* anyways, what was I saying? Oh yes. Studying abroad. Well, we had some rules that the students made which we all had to agree to. One of them was “No dating”. Stab to the heart, my life was over. Okay, not really. This was actually the best thing that could have happened. I got to know him and get passed the whole “does he like me? Is he staring at me? Do you think he knows I like him?” stage. All you girls know this stage. Its called torture. (And yes, I know guys have this stage too). So, I couldn’t date him. Not a big deal. He couldn’t take me out on a date anyways because we couldn’t have a car (yes, another rule). So after getting to know him, the dreaded Christmas break came (no pun intended) and we parted ways.

As soon as Christmas break was over, I had to see him. I was so happy when I was with him. I didn’t want to be clingy but I wanted to be around him. I wanted everything to be like it was, like we never left. When I did see him, something wasn’t the same. It was off. It was like he was physically there but the guy I knew was gone. He was distant (problem 1). He didn’t make an effort to see me. I was doing all the leg work (problem 2). By the way, I don’t mind doing my part and putting effort in a relationship. I just don’t want to be doing everything and getting nothing in return. Even with these signs staring at me straight in the face, I still ignored them (problem 3).

About one month later, I finally realized what was going on. He wasn’t into me, not in that way. I decided that it wasn’t healthy. I was hurting myself by trying to keep something going when it was never going the direction I wanted. I had to let go.

Later that week, I found out he asked a girl from back home to be his girlfriend. He liked her before he ever knew I existed. I never crossed his mind. But even after all this, I couldn’t be happier for them.

So there are signs. Look for them. Watch out for them. Guys will communicate, they just do it differently. If he doesn’t make you feel important, doesn’t return calls when he says he will, doesn’t make an effort to see you, makes you feel less of a person, or if you say “He’s a great guy, but…”, walk away. You don’t need the heartache. If he wants you, he will make every effort to be with you. Your prince is out there. Don’t let him catch you with a dirty frog.